iamthankfulforreflection

why do these things happen to me. I hate thisfeeling of uncertainty. of being  fake. of holding grudges. I dont feel like i should hold a grudge against kelsey, but how can i  trust her anymore. What does someone to lie to me about things like that. why! ughh. i wish i was in new york with davila. I wish i was more happy. I need to find a good place in my heart that i could blow up so much! i am a happy person. i know i am. I need to find me again.

iamthankfulforfood.

i am in such a weird mood. i cant even be myself. i want to go home. i miss my bed and my hot room and my moms hugs and i miss my brother. I wish i wasnt acting like this but i cant help but be annoyined at the facct that i dont fit in.  i see ppl that i think i could fit in with but idk how to approch them or if i will even be liked. i want to cry. i need a big hug from my mom.