What in the world. I am so stressed when i shouldnt be. college is def not what i expected it to be. why. i cant meet ppl like myself, but idk if that is gods plan or not. maybe i just have to go with the flow of thins. I mean try, but just let them happen. I wish i was really yoda. Oh dear. i had a deep convo with my roomate she is super sweet. i think that i really need to be grateful for the things in my life. Like my dad said today, i can breathe eat and walk so im good.I wish i was as grateful as him. You know what ben isnt for me because i need someone to care about things and love things and work hard for things. I need someone who dosent always procrastinate someone to pushes me to do the right things, someone who makes me want to do the right things. i need a guy who loves me enough to never want to love someone else. I am truely blessed to be where i am today. to have the temple so close and to have great ppl who lovethe lord around me. I really could be so messed up right now. i have had so many oportunities to just have sex or smoke pot but i didnt. i have done things that the lord wont approve of but i can repent and be forgiven. I love the lord and i trust him to guide me in the right direction everyday of my life. If i am doing my part he will be doing his. i am blessed.
